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At last!!! I’VE PASSED AND EARN A MASTER OF SCIENCE DEGREE!!! It has been a roller coaster ride for me during this course! My dad passed away, financial difficulties came in, running errands here and there, I got together with the one I love (it was a good one) and it ended sadly (unfortunately), my band was soaring….darn it!!! All those stuffs and I managed to pull thru!!!!

For u guys having in mind in taking MSc…do it! It is a good experience and it makes u more valuable than the already-abundant-degree holders out there (eeeh but it’s still nothing compared to those with working experience, so those who are working jangan marah yer…). Yeh yeh dah abis!!!

After massive contemplation and lots of thinking were done, I have realised that letting go of the person you love is far greater than loving that person. Loving a person does not necessarily mean that you must have that person. It kinda took me freaking 5 years to realize this (no kidding). For me, I love the person that I hold dear (my family and companion). True love with no hypocrisy. I would surely and pray for ones that I love. I want them to be happy and smile and be successful in anything that they do. Holding on to them but torturing their souls and making them lying to themselves is not going to help much. In fact, it is against the nature of love which is caring and conjuring happiness in someone that you love. When they smile, I smile and so forth. I always told this to the person that I really love (I still do till today) that "If you sad,I am sad, If you’re happy, I am also sad" as a gesture saying that I would go to great lengths to pour my love to the one that I love. If she’s happy, it makes my life complete. I want her to be happy and I always do pray for her happiness each day. There’s no greater love than taking up the misery of your love one and trade your happiness for theirs. And I love her.

I feel lost. I feel that I want more out of my life but I know that I should not. It’s against the will of God and it portrays unthankfulness. Am I being greedy? Am I being bad? I want more than this. I know I can and I know that I am capable but there’s something missing that I feel that I really want to have and achieve. What is that particular "missing" piece? Beats me. I need to do an extensive soul search myself. How to do it? I dunno yet. Climb the Himalaya mountains? Fly to the moon? I will find the answer soon enough…